i thot that after mi thinking abt it
me imagining the scenes abt it..
maybe the day he annouce it i will be fine.

But i guess mi thinking abt it
and him saying it are too different things.
As in, really hearing him annoucing his departure
was soh much more hurting than i thought.

i thot i wouldnt break down..
but sometimes my predictions are just wrong.

if only my prediction abt him leaving wasnt soh right.

lol

and i think he quite stupid today.
WHY of all times must he announce it to us RIGHT BEFORE our chinese mock exam??

couldnt really think or concentrate.
couldnt cry cuz teachers are constantly walking pass.
Q.B

haix.

even though he haven left and is still in sch..
i am already starting to feel empty inside le.
really really dunno how to survive when he leaves.

i think he is selfish.
say what..he stayed for a longer period of time becuase of us..
so?
you are still leaving!
and u cant even tell us WHY?
WHERE?

if u dunt tell us why..
then how do u noe we wont understand why u are leaving?

and..
donch u noe how many are hurt or heart broken by ur departure?

im sure everyone taught by him.
no matter how they disagree with me that mr soh doesnt rocks,
will feel unwilling to let him go..
right?

if only he could stay..
then icould have more memories of him..
if only he could stay..
at least when i leave him on graduation day..
i wouldnt have to come back to RV
and face this old and familiar campus
without him around..

sounds lame.

but well..
if only he stays..
i wont wont wont ever bother with the silly anons at my tag..
i wont care abt them..
or even notice them..
if only he stays..
i wont feel jealous when he toks to THzc..
haha.

but that were only the "if only"s

what is happening now..
is that he is leaving.
and i might never get to see his face..
never to hear his voice
never to laugh at his lame remarks..
ever
again.


maybe its just fate.
why when he taught us in sec2 i wasnt soh crazy over him?
and why must it be when i am in sec 3, "fantasizing" abt him
and THEN he had to go.

just hope i wont beng kui whenever i see him thats all.
lols.
thats so shi bai.

just wanna thank all those piggies(and one hamster)
who were there patting my head and cheering me up
and stuff..
when i was tearing..
lol.

thnx guys =))

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